Opening Night/Altering Night!

Today we opened Seussical! At 9:30am... which meant a 7:45am call time... blah!

I warmed up! I stretched! I put makeup on! I warmed up again! I put my costume and wig on and as I walked to places backstage it hit me. I'm in a way already living my dream! I performed for at least 200 small children who were so talk-a-tive the whole time! It was amazing to see their faces light up with excitement and enjoyment.

After the show I got to do a meet and greet with the children and Evan(Horton) and I were outside in the heat helping the children get into lines and taking pictures for over 20 minutes. I was sweating like a pig! It was so amazing to see them interact up close with everyone and I definitely had to come up with some creative answers as to why my hair was blue, and what it felt like for Dr. Dake(aka Cat in the Hat) to pluck out my tail feathers; plus I also really enjoyed listening to Evan explain all his Elephant questions too! I think my favorite was something to do with his ear's and of course he responded 'because I'm an Elephant!' I loved it!

After our morning show we un-makeuped, I went to choir and then did a bunch of errands!

Enter the evening show. I showed up, started on my makeup and before you know it its time for places. Completely ready for this show because of the experience with the younger audience this morning I think this will be mainly the same. Boy was I WRONG! It was in ways better! Adults laughing in places no one has before which in a way kind of threw a curve ball at most of us. They ate it up! Finally laughter at my tail! and I actually heard someone 'awwww' for me multiple times!

*** Enter my life changing experience! ***

I'm standing at the doors of the theatre and I have all these kids hugging me and adults complimenting me and Evan(my Hort). Then I suddenly notice this little girl. CUTE AS CAN BE!!! Long blonde hair who comes up to me and asks me to sign this book. This child's parents bought her this amazing book that was completely blank so she could add in pictures and decorated the cover with "Seussical The Musical" stickers the date in the corner 09/25/2009 and then more Dr. Seuss stickers. I was stunned. I wasn't sure how to sign it or react or anything. So I bent down on my knees and signed it with her right there with my name, my character name, a heart and some other doodles. Of course I felt like a Disney character at a meet and greet; the father was taking all kinds of pictures of the two of us then took more of me and her posing for the camera. But then she asked me to ask if Horton was busy. So at this point I turn and he's talking to a friend of his and I was like "I don't mean to interrupt but you have a visitor" I think he was even more shocked than I was. As he sees her Horton tote bag and she looks at him so innocently and says "I came to see YOU, I have your movie at home and your my favorite!" I was stunned. Not because I wanted to be her favorite but that because we touch a child's life tonight. We made something extremely magical happen for her! I had a flash back of going to see Figment and the DreamFinder at Disney as a little kid. And just recently getting to see Russell and the old grouchy man from Disney's UP! Something about what we do onstage in a show is magical. It touched her heart and I had to hold myself back from tearing up. To watch her hug him and take pictures with him was truly a special moment that I will truly remember forever! AND ITS ONLY OPENING NIGHT!

My Massive Tail!

Horton and I on first makeup night. His makeup has changed slightly. So has mine!

Lori and I last night! She made my lovely costume! My tail was made by Andrew Willis, Kaylie, Rebecca and some others I'm probably leaving out. Makeup and hair by Shannon Blalack




Oh boy, what an exhausting day! Doing laundry right now, then bed!

Knife Combat workshop tomorrow afternoon and another show tomorrow night! 10 shows left!

Amazing Life!

I took a moment to think today about how awesome my life is.

I love my mom and dad so much!

I love my Ethel(my sister) more than anything! I can't wait to see you either!

I love my bestie Diana!

I love my boo bear Brandon! (I hope you're enjoying New York!)

I love my job at Sunny Side Theatre and I'm sad its ending soon.

I love my co-workers!

I love Brad for being my super hero when I need him and for being my protector! You're the best in so many ways Brad!

In a nut shell: my life is amazing and I'm just not realizing how wonderful I have it!
Can't wait to go home to see the family!
And Jenn! For my night of spectating her bowl while we drink our special drinks and then go see our movie!
And Disney with Mom, Dad, Pamela and Matt
And HP with Manda!
And possibly Oklahoma or Wizard of Oz with Diana!

Loves!

A New Stand...

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright
Chorus:
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on
Repeat Chorus
Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Ooohhh
Repeat Chorus

After much deliberation and consideration plus watching Confessions of a Shopiholic I've decided that I'm over being stepped on time after time. I'm tired of being the person that everyone comes to when they are bored or when they really need something. I'm tired of being the person who helps hold everything together on her own. I have feelings too and I am a person who needs someone every once in a while. There have been a few constants in my life and I would jump through fire for them. However for everyone else I'm tired of doing it and getting nothing in return. I'm tired of being the girl who is chosen second to everything else.
I may not be making any sense to many of you but its a nerve that is being tried and tried again.

So I've decided to start new. Become the person that I once was instead of the person who is lonely and depressed half the time. First thing to go is my mess. I've started on a journey of getting rid of what I don't need and organizing what I have that I can't seem to let go of. I'm going to try and get up at the same time everymorning to try and get homework done earlier and try to get on a schedule. As hard as it may be, I'm not 15 anymore and I can't afford to sleep in till 3pm on any given summer day. With two summer jobs and an online class plus a show I've just been cast in, its going to get tricky. So a strict schedule may be just what I need. We'll see if it works and I'll try to start updating more often now. I miss this sometimes...

most of all. I miss my family and my big sister. And I miss my big brother too as crazy as that may seem. I miss his crazy 3am phone calls and him cheering me up with silly songs like Stacy's Mom by Foutains of Wayne.
I guess its really time to start thinking of the future and how in the world I'm going to support myself someday.

I love you mom!

Penny Marie
p.s. I think I may need a coffee maker again...

Awesome Day!

My parents are in town and today we went shopping!

We went to the flea market and I got season's One and Two of M*A*S*H* for $15! it was awesome!
Then I got an awesome new sweater! its red with snoopy on it and its got lots of music notes and such on it! Its awesome!
Then we ate lunch at Foosackly's and then headed to the mall.
I got my Giant BOLT! I'm so excited and happy!
then I got season two of felicity and the perfect man on dvd.
I feel like I got more but I can't remember and I'm headed to bed!

Night all and I had an awesome day!

God Remembers You

It's easy in life to feel forgotten, that our hopes and dreams don’t matter. But God said in Isaiah 49:15, "I will never forget you. I have carved you into the palm of My hand." People may leave you when you need them the most, but God is the friend that sticks closer than a brother. God knows every lonely night, and He sees every tear you've ever shed. When life deals you a tough blow, when you pray but the heavens are silent, you need to remind yourself of this promise, "God has not forgotten about me, my hopes or my dreams. He's not forgotten about the unfair things I've been through or the years of sacrificing and giving. He's promised He'll pay me back double." All those seeds that you've sown, it's just a matter of time before you reap your harvest. We serve a God that is not limited to the natural. You have an assignment and destiny to fulfill. No matter how bad it looks or how many obstacles are in your path, God has not forgotten about you. He is not going to take away His calling on your life. You may be far away from where you know in your heart God wants you, but you might as well get ready because the Most High God is not going to write you off. And when God remembers you, all the forces of darkness cannot keep you from fulfilling your purpose. A disappointment, a sickness or a person can't stop it; there is nothing that can keep you from your destiny.

Horoscopes

Quickie
Temper your passion with a veneer of etiquette and tact. Play along to get along.

Overview
You are a bit more demanding than usual -- though your demands are all perfectly reasonable! You may still have a hard time getting people to follow along and might get angry as a result.

Overview2
In theory, it should not matter what other people think of you. But in practice, you may have to take on a certain role today in order to impress one or two important people. You need them on your side in order to accomplish what you need to accomplish. This is not a question of compromising who you are -- you should never do that. But you might need to temper your passion with a veneer of etiquette and tact. Play along to get along just this once.

Weekly
You can pour on the charm as the week begins -- few can resist your smiles and wiles. Even if you don't need anything in particular, it's still a good time for you to earn some points from coworkers or family members. Much of the week is tied up with health concerns, though it's not hard for you to put a positive spin on almost anything. You may just decide on a dietary change or give up a bad habit -- but it's a great time for a check-up, too! Someone takes teasing one step too far this weekend, and it's up to you to set them straight.

Horoscope off Yahoo...

Daily Cosmic Calendar
by Mark Lerner for Astrology.com, 1 hour 23 minutes ago
If you made it through yesterday's thicket of unusual alignments, give yourself a couple of gold stars for high merit. Meanwhile, keep in mind that the two days following a Full Moon are the right time to distribute the enlightening Full Moon vibrations to family members, friends and your greater community of kindred souls. Giving you a boost in this direction is the Moon leaving void status in Libra and entering the water sign of Scorpio (2:24AM PDT). Although Scorpio Moon is a good time of the month for research and investigations, it also helps you ferret out secrets concerning dear ones and associates. Your stature as an amateur detective and discerning psychology expert can grow during this lunar dispensation. One of the best and most helpful alignments today clocks in at 6:44AM PDT when the Sun in Aries and Jupiter in Aquarius form a constructive, 60-degree sextile aspect. Whenever the two largest celestial bodies reach out in harmonious contact with each other, earthlings can feel a return of self-confidence along with the bubbling optimism to reach important goals. The fields of education, publishing and literary expression are particularly fired up and energized. This good news is amplified as Venus and Vesta, Mercury and Pallas, and Mercury and Juno all align in 60-degree formations at 7:33AM PDT, 9:15AM PDT and 11:36AM PDT, respectively. And Mercury continues its actions as it makes a mentally-stimulating, 72-degree link to Jupiter (6:12PM PDT), forms a contra-parallel with Neptune (7:35PM PDT) and finally winds up making a flowing trine to Pluto in earth signs (10:52PM PDT). Mercury's involvement with five other celestial bodies should equate with your having an overabundance of revelations. Keep track of your insights in a special notebook or on a recording device.

Worst Day Ever!

First off I'd like to say that I absolutely love my best friend Brandon M. Caten! I would have completely died today without you! Still not sure how I'm breathing but its one breath at a time.

The worst thing ever that could possibly have happened, happened.

I was removed from the musical at my school. I have a strong feeling that if I go into to much detail I will regret it later. But I am rethinking my future.
Nothing hurts more than being asked to sit and watch someone do your role while you're "recovering" from tonsilitus and then the next being told that said person is taking over your role for you.
If I had known I would have not sat through it.

Nothing makes any of this better right now. Not sure it really ever will but as mom says, "the sun will come out tomorrow." Geez, I hope she's right. If not I'm gonna be totally bummed!

Well you know there's always a desk job.

I'll keep my head up with the kids theatre job for this summer. I'm trying to stay upbeat but its hard when you work so hard and then all of a sudden have everything you worked so hard for pulled right out from underneath and have people happy about it.

You know when you're a kid and you hit your sibling and they tell your parents? And then you are like no way I so did not he/she is totally lying. Then the parent believes you and you just look at your sibling and totally give them an evil smile and do it again?
Well that totally happened as I walked in the building before they told me. Only it was a little different than that. Its just the feeling I'm talking about. Might not make much sence but again I can't really go to far into detail as I don't need anyone lecturing me about anything at all right now.

I'll just grin and bear it be super happy for Emily she's playing Reno and is doing a wonderful wonderful job! Keep it up girl!

Well after crying my eyes out Brandon was there to help me pull through and took me to feed the ducks, we walked, talked then met up at the mall with Jenn and Caitlin for some bungee action! Best time ever! And I can't tell you how much I laughed my ass off at dinner and tonight. You know you have good friends when you can go through the worst thing ever and at the end of the night they have had you laughing so hard you got a great ab workout!
I love you guys.

Bed time. Class early in the morning and then I have my amazing little loves of my life at Sunny Side!

Thanks mom for being there to tell me how much it sucks and for still coming even if I'm not doing anything! I love you and don't know where I'd be without you! Lost thats where! Miss yoU!

Penny Marie!

New Blog Backround...

Is cause for an update...

I miss my family a lot tonight.

thank goodness I'll get to see them this month! I'm super excited...
although at the same time rather bummed that my brother isn't gonna be able to see me.

Guess we'll have to catch up when I get to come home for a bit over the summer.

Miss you Mom!

The Climb, by Miley Cyrus

This song defines my life at this exact moment in time!

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
*I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on
Cause...

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Re-establishing an awesome friendship!

so I'm making this quick cause I'll add so much more tomorrow hopefully but today was a pretty good day. I was sooooo tired all day long but I got to talk to someone I haven't talked to in over I'd say like 10 years.

I may be wrong but I'm pretty sure I used to call him my Bubba. Jason Whitaker! His mom used to babysit me and I found his phone number online. I was really looking for his mom but I called and left him a message in order to get in touch with him and he called me back! I got to talk to him and got his mom's number.

more tomorrow! I just can't believe I've been blessed with a reconnection!

Penny Marie!

ps... talking to DVD about something tomorrow... hopefully its about a scholarship!

Psychiatric help 5 cents

I never thought I'd have such a few horrible weeks.

First my car breaks... fabulous! I was on my way to walmart on a Sunday to get a few things that I needed for the week like toothpaste for one!

So I'm getting close to the main road "Airport" in Mobile and my car starts steaming and smoke starts coming out. It was horrible! I was so pissed that after my dad fixed my car, it breaks.So I called people a million times and long story short on that one, I went to firestone and got my car fixed to the tune of $1,223.12 or something really close to that.

So then the following weekend which was this past weekend i was stressing the whole weekend about my first character anlysis that was due Tuesday of this week. I finally figured it all out and then got some sleep last night.

Then I come back from classes today to find my bathroom flooded.

I called the housing office who came by to look at it and then called maitnence.... and then maitinence came by and looked at it and told me they can't fix it tomorrow.

Therefore, I put everything on my bed to keep it from being ruined if it really floods tonight while I'm not there.

My advice, Don't bring more than you can stack on your bed to college.

Can you tell I love my bestfriend?

I had to take my over the toilet rack out of my bathroom...

Best picture if you ask me... This is probably the best use I've gotten out of my ex-boyfriends hoodie... Its huge... and has paint on it now... but its keeping water out of my closet!

my book case, printer and tv.

First Day of classes/New years Resolutions

today was the first day of the spring semester.
it was a pretty good day.
Sympossium was inlightening... and then opera/mt wrkshop got canceled

other than that, I got all my stuff for the semester to start and then watched Secret Life... and then I got called in to work sound cues for Sexual Perversion in Chicago that Michael is doing in the Black Box. Its pretty cool.

Hung out with Michael and Kenan for a bit afterward and now getting ready to go to bed. 8am master works class tomorrow. Its gonna be fabulous!
(I'll post my schedule tomorrow)

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In other news I set my new years resolution.
I'm giving up caffine for at least the next 4 months, if not for the whole year. Its a big thing for me but its gonna help so much for my voice!
AND!
I'm going to go work out 3 times a week in the rec center for at least 20 min. each time. and then I'm going to walk to class everyday unless its raining. It takes me about 20 min. to get to the laidlaw building where all my classes are and that means 40 min. of exercise a day on top of the other.

So I'll write more when I have time tomorrow class calls in the morning and Breaking Dawn the 4th twilight saga book is killing me being so daugnting and such... because I can't read as much as I've been doing over the break. But I will get that book done! and soon!

yours truly
Penny Marie/Hope Harcourt!