I still love love love this quote! I've been having kind of an interesting semester. Its had its Up's and its had its Down's. But in the end, I've met some really amazing people. And well some really not so amazing people too. And with that, I've grown a lot this semester too.
I've been watching the first season of Everwood. And once again, its amazing how t.v. caters to your life at the time. See Ephram Brown, the main teenage character in this series reminds me so much of a few people. But I also realize that he is so different than I thought.
I also saw High School Musical 3:Senior Year with Kenan on Friday night. And tonight, we danced in the parking lot together to "Can I Have This Dance?" from the soundtrack. It was amazing! and one of the most amazing moments of my life. I will never forget that because it was truely awesome. Don't get me wrong, Kenan is gay and we are totally just friends. But he is becoming one of my best friends ever and that is truely remarkable.
There are so many other people here that have made my life amazing too, and they all fit into the grand scheme of my life plan. The best part?: I have no idea what that plan is. But I'm creating it as I go along. I'm writing in the blank pages of my life as I go along and as I live them.
I honestly can't wait till Thanksgiving and Christmas breaks.
I can't wait to spend time with my family. I can't wait to spen time with Diana and spill everything about what has happened this year so far and just be in the same room together for more than 4 hours. I can't wait to see Anthony again and really catch up on the last 3 years before he leaves for the Navy. I can't wait to hang out with Jamie and see some people I haven't seen in a while.
But mostly, I can't wait to keep discovering who I am and who I want to be in this life. Because in the end, it really is the people who you meet and know that make you who you are. And sometimes, we just have to say goodbye to the one person who changed it all to keep moving forward in our lives in this universe. So over the break I plan on doing just that. I plan on getting my life in order and getting back what is mine, and saying my goodbye[for right now that is].
You see, I have a friend here who is battling the same issue. Only she has it harder. She has to see this person quite often. I have it easy in a sense of if I didn't want to, I would never have to see him again. I'm helping her through her problems step by step. And through that, I'm helping myself. Because we all know that we should sometimes listen to our own advice. And I'm ready to start.
Bring it on world! I'm ready for what you have to swing my way. but please, be kind about it!
I love you mom, your my biggest supporter and hero in my life. You and Daddy both. I would be lost without you. I'd be lost without Pamela too, she's the bestest sister in the world apart from me. And I miss my big brother. I'm being strong for him right now and I just pray for him everyday, and I think about the choices I make each time before I do it.
I love my family more than anything and I would gladly give up anything for everyone of them.
Love always,
Penny Marie, Munchkin, Myrttle, tater tot, tiger, and whatever nickname you may have ever called me!
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