A little inspiration from Josh... my new College Brother

I have often dreamed, of a far off place
Where a hero’s welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I’m meant to be
I’ll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, I’ll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I’ll see it through
And I won’t look back, I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track, no, I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope, but I won’t lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its’ harms
I don’t care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms
I will search the world, I will face it’s harms
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms

Day before the wedding!

Playing Battle of the Sexes! around the back is Spencer, Luis, Jonathan, Elizabeth, Dan, Jimmy, Anne, Kyle, Jen, and then Bernabe and Me in the front...
At there rehearsal thingy... I wasn't quite here for this part, which sucked but I'm here now and can't wait for her to be in that pearly white gown of hers in about 11 hours!

In Lew of Sunday's events!

Sooooooo, on Sunday afternoon around 2pm I believe, two of my besties from Floarts are marrying each other!
thats right, Anne [pronounced Annie] and Kyle!
This would be Me, Anne the Bride to be and Elizabeth(who got married earlier this summer)

Here we are, the Fantabulous 4! First year of college!

And again, first year of college

First Christmas at college

Our wonderful fun times, this one was hard to beat!

Sooooo I'm sooooo excited to have our reunion on Saturday night and then the wedding on sunday! I'm so happy for you Anne and Kyle!

My Wish by Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you
And the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God’s grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big


I ran across this song on one of my friends myspace pages... and I thought it was appropriate for how I hope that you will always succeed! I can't wait to hear about everything you do in this life!
Love you always!
Penny Marie <3

College Weekend

This past week and weekend have been really kick ass! I've made like I million different friends and I'm loving it!
I'm really starting to love college. I mean, I'm even watching scary movies, and I don't normally do that! lol

Friday was Karaoke night! It was AMAZING! Kenan and I sang Two become One by none other than the Spice Girls! It was amazing! Kenan sang like a million songs with a bunch of people but lots of theatre department kids were there and I loved the fact that I got to hang out with everyone.

Saturday I went to the symphony with Brandon. Again, it was amazing! I'm so glad I went. We sat in the balcony and I realized yet again just how much I loved to watch someone play the freakin piano. I thought it was just one certain person but I look back on life and I think, it all started with Mr. Patterson! I loved to watch him play and then it just kept moving on from there. The guy who played at the symphony was from Canada and he was awesome! I think its amazing that pianists can just do all that with there hands! I'm excited that I am back to loving music so much! Brandon and I are looking into getting season tickets and I'm sooooooo excited about that!

Sunday I just cleaned my dorm room and I am almost actually organized. ha yea right Penny Marie being organized? ha don't make me laugh! But seroiusly I'm almost there!

Well good night all, and good morning or afternoon if thats when you are actually reading this.

I'll leave you with a quote, "Reason and love are sworn enemies." - Pierre Corneille

Penny Marie <3

Black Roses Red

Verse 1:
Can I ask you a question please?
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly, I'm standing here afraid I'll be betrayed...
As twisted as it seems
I only feel love when it's in my dreams
so let in the morning the light and let the darkness fade away

Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
La Da Da
la Da Da
oooooooh
La Da Da

Verse 2:
Drowing in my lonliness
how long must I hold my breath?
So much emptiness inside...I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
my one last tear has come and gone
I'm dying to let your love rain down on me...
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
Cause I feel like I've never known love...

Love this song! Thought I'd share!

College Life...

Last week I think I thought that this college was going to kill me...
Or at least I thought the sky was falling. Ha ha I sound like chicken little! Look the sky is falling!

It sure as hell was hard to get out of bed and make myself keep going to class. It was probably the hardest thing ever. But I am doing it!

yesterday (Tuesday) I went and talked to Fulton about SETC prelims... I was shocked to find that he loved my choices and that everything is starting to turn out awesome! I'm so excited about it all. We start working on it tech today (Thursday)

As for other news, I'm doing remarkably well. I've made some new friends, I'm learning how to appriciate music so much more and I'm loving being in college. Its hard, man is it hard, but I wouldn't give it up for anything. Or anyone for that matter!
I made a choice a while ago to keep my education going. I had someone almost try to stop me from doing that. I made some choices along the way that some people may think were harsh or hurtful, but I don't regret them and I wouldn't change what I did or how I did it in any way. I owe no one anything but a thank you for helping me along the way. I am not apologizing for anything that happened or for the way things happened. That is that and now you can stop reading my blog looking for something in a since of thinking I owe you something or learned something you thought I should.

Now that that is over. I love you all very much! I love you mom and your the bestest!
Pamela, your the bestest too! And Diana! I don't know anyone else that reads this... Maybe Michele? Love you too...
Anyways, I've got a test to study for, for tomorrow...
we'll see how that goes... and then I'll probably learn to not procrastinate so much.

Night everyone!

Penny Marie <3

100th post

I found this quote in my xanga mail today... I hadn't checked that email in forever... thats all that really comes to that email anymore but I thought it was appropriate for the time being.

If you even read this, I want you to know, that this is the truth. My life would be so different without you. You were the one who changed it all, and in the end, if that was all you were meant to be for, then I am grateful for that. I have learned so much from you. I learned how to be me and be okay with being me. The fun silly me. I learned how to trust my heart no matter what. And in the end I think I learned how to listen to everything even the littlest things and take them for what it is worth. I know I didn't do it much in our time together, but I think I am learning how to look and listen for the signs now. You taught me that even if I only learned it in the end afterwards.

I also learned this:

And that its okay to want to:

One thing I know for sure though is that:

But its okay because I'm okay with that.

And in the end

and its okay.

A little inspiration from tonight...

Je me souviens by Reynaldo Hahn...
this is the english translation from the recital I went to tonight.

I remember, ah, yes, I remember
how tender our new love once was;
certain moments, and conversations
which hurt me when I recall them.

I remember, ah, yes, I remember
how our dreams were all the same,
how your happiness was also mine
the happiness of two people in love.

Do you sometimes remember as well
how fragile was the bond between us?
Born of our mutual attraction,
at once both weak and strong,
one evening, when our lips
met passionately at darkness,
trembling with hope and dreams?
and then came the final parting:
for me, the years have passed,
yet my feelings have not changed.

I remember, ah yes, I remember
everything seems to bode so well;
our memories are all we have left,
as fresh as the dawn of a new day.

I remember, ah yes, I remember!
for in you I see myself once more.
What spell have you cast over me?
It is only when I reach out to you,
that I can find my own youth again.
Ah! If I could rid myself at last
of the troubled parth we shared!
How often it is I seem to hear
the distant echo of your voice,
so bright and clear and sweet,
when our hearts still beat as one,
as the two of us sought ecxtasy
In our quest for lasting Love.


I feel like this piece really describes my life right now. I miss him and I think that with this I want to learn this piece and put it in my rep book for future endevors! It may be what I am going through right now but I hope to finally get past it. I just want to be there in his life... but I also want the best for him, which is right now not me. So I'm talking and working things out here in Alabama and finding things to throw myself into like my work and my vocal study.

I also am looking at summer interns... it could be an amazing expeirence! I can't wait to start applying... but I still miss home and friends.

I will always love you all forever, don't ever doubt that.

Penny Marie