Mr. Phelps...

Have you ever wished you could be a fish?
I've been thinking about this for a while, I've got a new beta fish.
I named him Mr. Phelps. I was talking to Sam about what I should name my new fish and he says to me, name it Mr. something, so then I talk to my mom and she said Mr. Phelps, in honor of Michael Phelps who won 8 golds in the Olympics.
I've loved the idea of having a fish since my first year of college.
They are just so facinating, the way that they just swim around in a bowl or tank or whatever you buy for them to live in.
I wanted to bring Remy with my to school but it would have been a horrible ride for him. So he stayed with my mom and dad, in my room at there house.
I wish I could have brought Remy to the apt. me and Sam moved into over the summer but his cats like fish way to0 much! Morty almost killed Remy last semester lol.

So I wonder what it is like to just swim in a bowl your whole life and not ever have a mate? I couldn't imagine it. I'm trying to start working on my independence skills. I need to prove to myself and others I can get on by myself. Its really hard and it doesn't mean that I want to give up any of the people who I love in my life. I found myself saying I needed someone the other day, and I think the correct statement now is I want them. I want to hear from them not I need to hear from them, at least for right now.
I need to become more like my fish, I need to learn to be independent! I can do it, I know I can. I don't really want to right now, but I know that I can. And then when I'm done at school here, I want to be with the person who makes me rediculously happy in every way. I want to be able to support him in the ways that he needs.

I love you mom, pam, dad, patrick, everyone!

And I love you Samuel H. Clein! I love you so much!