Faith, Trust, and Pixie Dust...

So, I feel lost right now. I'm not sure where I'm going with my life and for the first time, I'm really truly scared about that.
Sure, I know I'm more than likely going to go to USA in the Fall of '08 and graduate with my BFA in Theatre Arts with and emphasis in Musical Theatre. So I know what I'm actually planning out to do.
But have you ever been lost so deep inside your thoughts it scares you?
Well that's where I am at this point.
I did the unthinkable. The one thing that everyone at one point or another doesn't want to do, I broke someones heart. Or at least I think I did. I'm not really sure, he's held up a wall for so long maybe I only slightly punctured it. but in turn, I lost a part of mine.
You see, he'll always have a part of my heart. I gave it to him, and he pretty much kept it safe, now I'm lost.
the song I posted earlier kind of explains how my brain is working.
I've always loved the thought of flying off to never never land, and tonight I wish it were a real place, where I could go fly with Peter and fight Pirates with the lost boys.
You see I always had faith and trust in so many people. and I lost his faith and trust now... now all I have is pixie dust left, and I think we all know thats not really a current option.
So I'm gonna go dry my hair, and dream about something good I hope.
I still have the teddy bear he bought me, I'll probably never stop sleeping with it... as long as I'm living on my own I mean.
we'll see what happens in the future... I just wish I could have my best friend back.