Sisterly Love...

So yea, this is definetly dedicated to the love of my life right now... that would be my wonderful sister!

Here's to lots of laughs and love for many years to come.

Brave!

Okay so my mom was on her way home the other day from work and heard this song on the radio and I definitely love her response to it. She came home and tells me, oh by the way I was on my way home and 107.7 was on and I heard this song and it just sounded like a Penny song. I had to laugh. I'd never heard that from anyone before and so I look up the song and she knew it was by Idina Menzel from her new album. So I looked up the words and then listened to a clip of it and it was just amazing. So I definitely agreed. it just sounds like a Penny song!
so here it is:
Rest of blog to follow!

Brave
by Idina Menzel

I don't know just where I'm going
And tomorrow is a little overwhelming
And the air is cold and I'm not the same anymore.

I've been running in your direction for too long now,
Lost my own reflection and I can't look down
If you're not there to catch me when I fall.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home,
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave.
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life,
I can't be afraid 'cause it's my turn to be brave.

All along, all I ever wanted was to be the light
When your life was daunting but I can't see mine,
When I feel as though you're pushing me away.

Well who's to blame? Are we making the right choices?
'Cause we can't be sure, if we're hearing our own voices,
As we close the door, even though we are to desperate to stay.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home,
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave.
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life,
I can't be afraid 'cause it's my turn to be brave.

And I might still cry,
And I might still bleed,
These thorns in my side,
This heart on my sleeve.
And lightening my strike this ground at my feet,
And I might still crash,
But I still believe...

This is the moment I stand here all alone,
With everything I have inside, everything I own,
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave.
If this is the last time before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life,
I can't be afraid, it's my turn to be brave.

so... I just bought the album and I love it. This song just explains everything I've been going through. Stress, finishing school, and being able to be brave and keep going from here.

I'm very scared to leave and go away. I probably cry about it at least 3 times a week with Sam. And he always does the same thing. He wipes away my tears, kisses me, tells me how beautiful I am and what a strong person I am, how I'm going to have fun, and how everything is going to be okay, and the best thing of all, how he is going to be right here waiting for me through it all.

I honestly don't know how I got so entirely lucky that this boy seems to think I'm the most beautiful girl ever and how I'm amazing and funny and everything. And above all he puts up with everything about me. Every quirk, insecurity, everything. I couldn't have asked for a better person to fall completely in love with. I didn't really even ask for him, he just kind of fell into my lap. It was just basically a fluke and I wouldn't take that moment back for anything. I love him with every inch of me. Every blood cell, every fluid, intestine inside me.
You know I heard something in a song once saying that when our heart breaks and that person comes along that they plant seeds in those cracks and flowers bloom in those cracks. I was lucky that he caught me with just a few bruises and slight cracks but those flowers sure did bloom quickly! Again, I have no idea why I got so lucky and why I even deserve him but I sure don't plan on letting him go anytime soon!
Sam Clein, I love you with everything and I'm so happy your in my life!

Penny M. Endicott

True Love Waits...

I've always had an interesting view point on this phrase. Its has great meanings for everyone I'm sure. However, for me, it has nothing to do with sex.

My first real relationship kind of got flushed down the drain. A harsh way to treat it I guess but when you think about it I feel better about who I am. That 2 years of my life we such an adventure, and I wouldn't change it for anything. He was right about one thing though. Since the begining he always told me that I would find someone who was better for me. Time after time he told me that. And he was right. In the end I'm thankful for who that person turned out to be.

True Love, that is something I could use to define my relationship with Sam. I'm absolutely sure of that. He's the best! As for the "waits" part. Thats where school comes in. Grrr... Don't get me wrong, I'm totally excited about going to USA! I'm gonna have a roomate! Well one that isn't my boyfriend. So for the next two years I really hope that my love for Sam really holds true. I believe it will. I mean I cry all the time about the fact that it sucks that I have to leave him. This next week will be an interesting trial run of being without him. I've actually never not seen him for this long. I've always been around. I was supposed to leave today for Orlando and then to Alabama for orientation and then back on monday. Well I had to leave yesterday early because I ran into some complictations with chest pains. Well I couldn't get to the doctor yesterday like I wanted because my car was overheating. So now I get to go tomorrow morning. Hopefully they will be able to tell me what is wrong with me.

As for the true love waits part, its on the sweat pants my mom just bought me. And its the coolest thing ever right now.

I think it will last. I know he respects me, I love him and trust him with my heart. He's just amayzing! and I now have a cheetah to go sleep with tonight!

Sweetest dreams everyone!

Penny Marie~

New Cheetah!

Okay, so I got my new build a bear cheetah! I was really really excited! So we got to the mall and went into the build a bear store and I started to get really excited as we dug through the intire box of cheetah's and we found the one with the cutest face! So as we're standing in line behind this entire omish family who had 8 kids who each were getting an animal. There was also this little girl and her mom who were in line in front of us as well. Another employee walked up and said who's next in line and the girl and her mom went over there with the other employee and I stayed in the line. Well these people come up behind us and were like oh look another line. I was like um hello this is the line. and they just walked by. Anyways the teenage girl with these people that just jumped the line gets all pissy and made a pretty big scene when the lady who was helping them walked away. Well I got my cheetah stuffed after being patient. Me and Sam picked out this really cute top to go with him so he looks all dressed up ready to play a big concert! Here's what really gets to me, we went to stand in line and I didn't see this guy and he goes, "um yeah I'm in line here" in a really pissy attitude! Omg I wanted to punch him in the face. Well we actually ended up getting out of there before those snoby people. Grrr I hate people who cut line then accuse you of doing it when you didn't see someone.

Anyways I've got the cutest cheetah! I'm really happy and I'm I love my boyfriend!

Update on life

Wow its been a really long time since I updated last.

1st off as I wrote in my last post, my grand mother passed away. Along with that my whole family went to the funeral. Needless to say, it was very strange, sad and somehow during that day my wonderful brother made me laugh the whole way through.

Along with my grandmothers passing, came all the things from her house. Back when my dad was younger his dad who passed before I was born, bought an electric hamond organ. My dad had made a claim on the organ asked me if my boyfriend wanted it. I asked him and at first he wasn't so excited about it but he loves it now.

Speaking of my boyfriend, he is awesome! I love him with all my heart. He's the best! He drives me up a wall half the time but he is totally awesome! And he is buying me a build a bear on friday! well actually a Cheetah. I'm so excited.

More later. Loves!

Penny Marie