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So I fail at being a blogger.

I'm 41 days away from being a college graduate!

I'm working on my senior showcase and also trying to pass my other classes so I can graduate!

I'm moving to Nebraska this summer for an internship in Theatre Education! I'm pretty darn excited about that!

Other than that... I'm currently working on my floor plans for the show I'm doing in scene design "Cat on a Hot Tin Roof"

more later when I have more to say.

Deactivation?

does anyone know why I got an email telling me my account might be deactivated?

Opening Night/Altering Night!

Today we opened Seussical! At 9:30am... which meant a 7:45am call time... blah!

I warmed up! I stretched! I put makeup on! I warmed up again! I put my costume and wig on and as I walked to places backstage it hit me. I'm in a way already living my dream! I performed for at least 200 small children who were so talk-a-tive the whole time! It was amazing to see their faces light up with excitement and enjoyment.

After the show I got to do a meet and greet with the children and Evan(Horton) and I were outside in the heat helping the children get into lines and taking pictures for over 20 minutes. I was sweating like a pig! It was so amazing to see them interact up close with everyone and I definitely had to come up with some creative answers as to why my hair was blue, and what it felt like for Dr. Dake(aka Cat in the Hat) to pluck out my tail feathers; plus I also really enjoyed listening to Evan explain all his Elephant questions too! I think my favorite was something to do with his ear's and of course he responded 'because I'm an Elephant!' I loved it!

After our morning show we un-makeuped, I went to choir and then did a bunch of errands!

Enter the evening show. I showed up, started on my makeup and before you know it its time for places. Completely ready for this show because of the experience with the younger audience this morning I think this will be mainly the same. Boy was I WRONG! It was in ways better! Adults laughing in places no one has before which in a way kind of threw a curve ball at most of us. They ate it up! Finally laughter at my tail! and I actually heard someone 'awwww' for me multiple times!

*** Enter my life changing experience! ***

I'm standing at the doors of the theatre and I have all these kids hugging me and adults complimenting me and Evan(my Hort). Then I suddenly notice this little girl. CUTE AS CAN BE!!! Long blonde hair who comes up to me and asks me to sign this book. This child's parents bought her this amazing book that was completely blank so she could add in pictures and decorated the cover with "Seussical The Musical" stickers the date in the corner 09/25/2009 and then more Dr. Seuss stickers. I was stunned. I wasn't sure how to sign it or react or anything. So I bent down on my knees and signed it with her right there with my name, my character name, a heart and some other doodles. Of course I felt like a Disney character at a meet and greet; the father was taking all kinds of pictures of the two of us then took more of me and her posing for the camera. But then she asked me to ask if Horton was busy. So at this point I turn and he's talking to a friend of his and I was like "I don't mean to interrupt but you have a visitor" I think he was even more shocked than I was. As he sees her Horton tote bag and she looks at him so innocently and says "I came to see YOU, I have your movie at home and your my favorite!" I was stunned. Not because I wanted to be her favorite but that because we touch a child's life tonight. We made something extremely magical happen for her! I had a flash back of going to see Figment and the DreamFinder at Disney as a little kid. And just recently getting to see Russell and the old grouchy man from Disney's UP! Something about what we do onstage in a show is magical. It touched her heart and I had to hold myself back from tearing up. To watch her hug him and take pictures with him was truly a special moment that I will truly remember forever! AND ITS ONLY OPENING NIGHT!

My Massive Tail!

Horton and I on first makeup night. His makeup has changed slightly. So has mine!

Lori and I last night! She made my lovely costume! My tail was made by Andrew Willis, Kaylie, Rebecca and some others I'm probably leaving out. Makeup and hair by Shannon Blalack




Oh boy, what an exhausting day! Doing laundry right now, then bed!

Knife Combat workshop tomorrow afternoon and another show tomorrow night! 10 shows left!

Amazing Life!

I took a moment to think today about how awesome my life is.

I love my mom and dad so much!

I love my Ethel(my sister) more than anything! I can't wait to see you either!

I love my bestie Diana!

I love my boo bear Brandon! (I hope you're enjoying New York!)

I love my job at Sunny Side Theatre and I'm sad its ending soon.

I love my co-workers!

I love Brad for being my super hero when I need him and for being my protector! You're the best in so many ways Brad!

In a nut shell: my life is amazing and I'm just not realizing how wonderful I have it!
Can't wait to go home to see the family!
And Jenn! For my night of spectating her bowl while we drink our special drinks and then go see our movie!
And Disney with Mom, Dad, Pamela and Matt
And HP with Manda!
And possibly Oklahoma or Wizard of Oz with Diana!

Loves!

A New Stand...

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright
Chorus:
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on
Repeat Chorus
Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Ooohhh
Repeat Chorus

After much deliberation and consideration plus watching Confessions of a Shopiholic I've decided that I'm over being stepped on time after time. I'm tired of being the person that everyone comes to when they are bored or when they really need something. I'm tired of being the person who helps hold everything together on her own. I have feelings too and I am a person who needs someone every once in a while. There have been a few constants in my life and I would jump through fire for them. However for everyone else I'm tired of doing it and getting nothing in return. I'm tired of being the girl who is chosen second to everything else.
I may not be making any sense to many of you but its a nerve that is being tried and tried again.

So I've decided to start new. Become the person that I once was instead of the person who is lonely and depressed half the time. First thing to go is my mess. I've started on a journey of getting rid of what I don't need and organizing what I have that I can't seem to let go of. I'm going to try and get up at the same time everymorning to try and get homework done earlier and try to get on a schedule. As hard as it may be, I'm not 15 anymore and I can't afford to sleep in till 3pm on any given summer day. With two summer jobs and an online class plus a show I've just been cast in, its going to get tricky. So a strict schedule may be just what I need. We'll see if it works and I'll try to start updating more often now. I miss this sometimes...

most of all. I miss my family and my big sister. And I miss my big brother too as crazy as that may seem. I miss his crazy 3am phone calls and him cheering me up with silly songs like Stacy's Mom by Foutains of Wayne.
I guess its really time to start thinking of the future and how in the world I'm going to support myself someday.

I love you mom!

Penny Marie
p.s. I think I may need a coffee maker again...

Awesome Day!

My parents are in town and today we went shopping!

We went to the flea market and I got season's One and Two of M*A*S*H* for $15! it was awesome!
Then I got an awesome new sweater! its red with snoopy on it and its got lots of music notes and such on it! Its awesome!
Then we ate lunch at Foosackly's and then headed to the mall.
I got my Giant BOLT! I'm so excited and happy!
then I got season two of felicity and the perfect man on dvd.
I feel like I got more but I can't remember and I'm headed to bed!

Night all and I had an awesome day!

God Remembers You

It's easy in life to feel forgotten, that our hopes and dreams don’t matter. But God said in Isaiah 49:15, "I will never forget you. I have carved you into the palm of My hand." People may leave you when you need them the most, but God is the friend that sticks closer than a brother. God knows every lonely night, and He sees every tear you've ever shed. When life deals you a tough blow, when you pray but the heavens are silent, you need to remind yourself of this promise, "God has not forgotten about me, my hopes or my dreams. He's not forgotten about the unfair things I've been through or the years of sacrificing and giving. He's promised He'll pay me back double." All those seeds that you've sown, it's just a matter of time before you reap your harvest. We serve a God that is not limited to the natural. You have an assignment and destiny to fulfill. No matter how bad it looks or how many obstacles are in your path, God has not forgotten about you. He is not going to take away His calling on your life. You may be far away from where you know in your heart God wants you, but you might as well get ready because the Most High God is not going to write you off. And when God remembers you, all the forces of darkness cannot keep you from fulfilling your purpose. A disappointment, a sickness or a person can't stop it; there is nothing that can keep you from your destiny.